I stand here, in the same place again. I am ignored! And I am
hurt! More hurt because things between us seemed so wonderful a moment ago. It
seemed so much real until the truth slapped me again, on my face. I heard
people saying “People change. Things change.” I wish you did! I wish you
changed for me, for our love and for our life. You didn’t and it’s sad. It left
us with a very “UN-happy” end.
I had this love in my heart from the time I saw you. I am
sorry I fell too much in love with you. I should have known that it was just a fling
not love for you. But dear boy, I shouldn’t forget to appreciate your talent of
pretending things. It really made me believe you loved me. It made me blind,
too blind in your love (“fake love” I correct.)
Now that I cry every time I think of you, I realize I was
too wrong to love you. I was too wrong to expect. You made me dream and you
destroyed the whole thing so badly. Everything is a nightmare now. Every part
of it haunts me each time I breathe. I feel weak to my knees. I ached for your
love, you didn’t care. You were with someone. You found someone better than me.
Let me be happy for you. I will be happy for both of you though it breaks my
heart to see to go away with someone new.
It’s hard when things change. Sometimes people don’t need to
speak up something. You get it from their action. Your ignorance told me
everything. It told me I don’t have any right to call you mine and it’s over no
matter how much I try to make it right.
But it’s okay. It really is! I will cry few more days or few
more months or even few more years but I will be okay some day. Someday I will
look at these moment and laugh feeling silly. Laugh like it was all so easy to
let go. Then I will smile and love myself more than I love you now. Everything
will be beautiful again. I promise I will take better care of my heart. I won’t
let it be broken ever again. I will come out stronger. I will make myself
happy. I will be my own strength.
Until then, I will cry. I will scream. I will go out with swollen
eyes. But just until that someday! I promise it to myself. I will be okay
without you one day.
It all started with a smile and just a simple “yes”. It was
never meant to go down in flames like it did. Our love was supposed to grow not
fade but they say, sometimes good things fall apart so that better things
can come together. I am awaiting the better thing to come my way. And I am
positive!
# I was just too bored to stay idle so i wrote something and it made me feel good :)
