Earthquake in Nepal; Response for the harm?

It’s 4 in the morning and I just can’t seem to fall asleep. So just to make myself useful and get less scared of random scary images in my mind, I am writing this. Now it’s not at all about my boyfriend or love life. I am just going to try writing about some deep things. The following lines are about things that don’t actually occur to my mind much.

As a young (I feel old) writer. Well not a real writer though, but I have been getting this feeling to jot down something about the very disheartening natural disaster that has occurred in Nepal. Several earthquakes have crushed Nepal. It has left the whole world with great sympathy for the country and its people. It’s sad to see people die. It’s so sad to see people suffer and it’s so sad we can’t really stop our mother earth from being rude.

I am sad for Nepal and I have the country and its people in my heart, in my prayers but I have been wondering why so much of death tolls and destructions because of earthquake. I am a geography student and I fail to remember any earthquake that has caused this much destruction within a short period of time.

I have been thinking about it for several days now and I wonder if it is due to the ritual of sacrificing animals (ox, Buffalo, etc) to please their goddess. If it’s so, may be they pleased their goddess yet has totally done the reverse to mother earth. Is the mother upset with the heartless harm to her children? She is, certainly! It must be why she is being uncaring too as for mother earth, every creature is her child; harming one would always mean being inconsiderate to her.

I feel it’s like the karmic concept. What goes around comes around. Harm others and it bounces back, hitting hard. So, I wish the ritual of sacrificing animal stops and the mother earth stops being inconsiderate. 

But right now, I am praying for Nepal. Praying to mother earth and begging for forgiveness. I am praying that Nepal bravely passes this phase and rises up stronger than ever! Nepal has all my prayers!

P.S. These are my thoughts and about the destruction of earthquake in past..i am just too sleepy to verify it. So the readers please correct me if i am wrong. Thank you! :)

Letting you GO!

I stand here, in the same place again. I am ignored! And I am hurt! More hurt because things between us seemed so wonderful a moment ago. It seemed so much real until the truth slapped me again, on my face. I heard people saying “People change. Things change.” I wish you did! I wish you changed for me, for our love and for our life. You didn’t and it’s sad. It left us with a very “UN-happy” end.

I had this love in my heart from the time I saw you. I am sorry I fell too much in love with you. I should have known that it was just a fling not love for you. But dear boy, I shouldn’t forget to appreciate your talent of pretending things. It really made me believe you loved me. It made me blind, too blind in your love (“fake love” I correct.)

Now that I cry every time I think of you, I realize I was too wrong to love you. I was too wrong to expect. You made me dream and you destroyed the whole thing so badly. Everything is a nightmare now. Every part of it haunts me each time I breathe. I feel weak to my knees. I ached for your love, you didn’t care. You were with someone. You found someone better than me. Let me be happy for you. I will be happy for both of you though it breaks my heart to see to go away with someone new.

It’s hard when things change. Sometimes people don’t need to speak up something. You get it from their action. Your ignorance told me everything. It told me I don’t have any right to call you mine and it’s over no matter how much I try to make it right.

 

But it’s okay. It really is! I will cry few more days or few more months or even few more years but I will be okay some day. Someday I will look at these moment and laugh feeling silly. Laugh like it was all so easy to let go. Then I will smile and love myself more than I love you now. Everything will be beautiful again. I promise I will take better care of my heart. I won’t let it be broken ever again. I will come out stronger. I will make myself happy. I will be my own strength.

Until then, I will cry. I will scream. I will go out with swollen eyes. But just until that someday! I promise it to myself. I will be okay without you one day.

 

It all started with a smile and just a simple “yes”. It was never meant to go down in flames like it did. Our love was supposed to grow not fade but they say, sometimes good things fall apart so that better things can come together. I am awaiting the better thing to come my way. And I am positive! 

# I was just too bored to stay idle so i wrote something and it made me feel good :)