A young dream of mine came true. A silly wish of mine came true. Something I never thought would be mine but it’s now mine. I smile with my heart for meeting you then and meeting you back again. I wonder if I was blessed the day I turned your way and saw your charming face. I fell for you; a 12 year old girl fell in love! I called it a crush.
There was something in your serious looks, I could sense. It was something very different than what others saw and sensed. It was always a pleasurable moment just to dumbly stare at you and wonder if you would ever look at me the way I did. I never thought you would. Every time I thought of being with you, I would slam the door of “impossible” on my thoughts. You deserved better if anyone could sense your charm the way I did.
I was just let to see you for a year; my fate pulled me away from a place where I lived for 12 years and where my heart lived. Years passed, farther away my fate took me from you. Only if I could forget those feelings would I have forgotten you. But it never occurred to me. Sometimes, may be situation faded your memories for while but at certain moment it came back to me, it all came back to me.
And on a fine day, ii found you on this awesome social networking site. After searching you from the day I created a facebook account for myself. I was on the ninth cloud when I found you on facebook. A big “THANK YOU” to facebook for that. I saw you again. I felt those things again. We were in contact but guess our fate had another plans again, I lost my way in my journey back to my old love. It was fate, as you say it. I wish we were together from the first time we met, as you say you, I do too. But fate, you know it’s all surprises stored for us. Who knows, if we dint separate then we wouldn’t be together now.
Again we
meet part now! I am back from my college and you are on vacation too. We talk
to each other and we plan to meet. How wonderful I felt! I couldn’t deny that most
awaited opportunity of seeing you in real.
It was a
very cold evening. If it was not to see you then I wouldn’t have moved an inch
away from that heater but it was like, “the cold never bothered me anyway” kind
of feeling that swayed me that day.
That evening I saw you. After SIX LONG YEARS!!! I saw you again!
I was nervous. You were too? But I did not want you to sense that so I covered it with my skill of talking non-sense. We went for a long walk. It was really cold. My hands felt numb. I was shivering internally because of the cold but I was happy to be with you. Being with you was something I wished, so I did not want to spoil that moment just because it was cold. I could bear it, for it was for you!
That night,
my phone beeped. I unlocked my phone and saw it was your message. I smiled.
Even before opening it, I smiled. When I did, it was something I wished when I was
young coming true. It was totally unexpected! I wished but I never expected it.
You said you loved me! How could I say no?Things in my life got brighter after that day. We had those night long conversations and messaging. Even every day meeting ups. I loved being with you. You made me love my present as well as my childhood times. You were not just a boyfriend but an old friend, my first innocent crush, and that made me love you even more.
As time passed, some curses worked on us. We saw our bad days, just like all couples do. Getting hurt and having misunderstanding were just a part of a relationship, I knew. But in your case, may be because I expected best from you, I never thought we would face such phases. When it did, it almost shattered my hopes and dreams of us. (Thank you for being strong when I fell weak on those times.) Thank god! Those times are gone now. Crying my eyes out was tough. Staying all night and hiding all that pain was tough but when I think back now, it was all worth.
Now, here we are. Eight months of togetherness and all those smiles and tears. All the sorrows and happiness we shared. All the trust and affection we have for each other. All the good times and bad times, we went through. All the times we stayed together and the times we have stayed apart (in distance) holds an enormous significance in my life. I don’t know what the future holds for us but I just wanted you tell you that, with all the flaws you have, all the things that has hurt us, all the times I have spend missing your presence, every moment that I wished you were here, and every, every, moment I cherish, I LOVE YOU!
